Ranting...

I have been strong for too long. I would like to let go, be vulnerable, be delicate. The armour is getting heavier. Is it realistic to expect myself to be happy always. I want to unlearn, rest, be okay with the human experience. Then again, what is real? As per Kabbalah, we are like a closed box with 5 senses and even if something from the spiritual plane touches us, the senses act as a transducer and the programming within translates it for us as our reality. We see what we want to see and what we can. That's all there is. It's all an illusion and it's far more meaningful than we give it credit for. It's both. The duality of extremes. The moment we accept both opposite ideas as the truth is the gateway to accessing multiple realities. Schrödinger's cat theory is the closest one that explains it.

From Wikipedia:
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//A cat is placed in a room that is separated from the outside world.

A Geiger counter which counts the amount of radioactive decay and a little bit of a radioactiveelement are in the room.

Within one hour, one of the atoms of the radioactivematerial might decay (or break down because the material is not stable), or it may not.

If the material breaks down, it will release an atomic particle, which will hit the geiger counter, which will release poison gas, which will kill the cat.

The question now is: at the end of the hour, is the cat alive or dead? Schrödinger says that according to the Copenhagen Interpretation, as long as the door is closed, the cat is dead and alive. There is no way to know until the door is opened. But by opening the door, the person is interfering with the experiment. The person and the experiment have to be described with reference to each other.

By looking at the experiment the person has influenced the experiment.//